where's my heart

Does anyone know what it feels like to be in love with more than one person? I'm so crazii about my first love, but they never give me the time of day. Whenever I try and move on. . . something jus keeps pullin me back. But you know that saying "you never know what you got till it's gone..?" it doesn't always effect the people we want it to. && this other one is stuck between a rock and a hard place. They don't know where their mind is at, and it's jus making things harder. Sharing was something that I never did well, and I still can't do it. Call it selfish. I could care less. Whoever said love brings you happiness is a FOOL. nah I'm jus playin, but still. . . All these mixed emotions and feelings aren't getting me any where. So maybe I should be [E M O T i O N L E S S] you know. Jus stop giving a f&%k. Maybe it won't hurt. Maybe one day I'll be that number 1.