romantically numb

i feel nothing. i see nothing. i hear nothing. this was nothing. you are nothing.. but a lie. a figure of my imagination.. it's jus a whole bunch of nothingness. love is nothing. my heart is full of nothing. because i'm numb. romantically numb. someone bring me back to life.

a general note

fuck love. fuck relationships. fuck ___ (fill in blank) ..it`s no longer my problem.

over time..

Get mad, cry, breathe, stretch, shake, vent &&... jus let it all go. Live and let live. Doing what I have to.

so basically you meant

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Reality

I'm in love with a bitch. Some might not like to hear it, but it's true.. can't help who you love, but I jus might have to..

you forgot me.

you forgot about me. you forgot who i was. you said you'll never forget about me and you did. should have known, because your words are like toxic vapors; they come out and they're deadly because they dont mean anything. they do nothing but hurt and decieve. you literally took your last hit, and for that i'm good. && to think i was about to give you my last words. I see now that you're not even worthy of those. The future, the future, the future is all i'm hearing. How can there be a future when you already forgot about me. as soon as your hand touched my face you forgot. maybe i wasnt even really there. not only do i think you forgot me, but you forgot who you were and lost everything. So now when you think of me....DON'T. because YOU FORGOT.

the never ending erge..

You know that feeling when there's something you just gotta have. That feeling that you want what you want when you want it. It's a non-stop erge I can't get rid of. Days will go by and the feeling never left. The erge to touch, to kiss, to love, and be loved...all like it use to be. The erge to make it like it was.

a letter to my sis

Dear sista,
There comes a time when we all have to grow up. You have done soo much growing, and there's is no need for you to take any steps back. Don't live in the past, hold you're head up high and look nowhere but up. "When I look down I see them. When I look up I don't see any." Member that sis... Jus know that imma always have ya back. It's true that it's okay to forgive, but you don't have to forget. Hopefully all of this comes to an end, and things can get back to the way it use to be. More like how it's suppose to be. Us and them...how it's always been. No bitch should ever come between.

Sincerly,
lil sis ;*

Coulda Been You.

"Just think, just think
That coulda be you,
Just think..that shoulda been you (with me)
I'll share the world with you,
But you ain't ride with a rider so I AIN'T FUCKIN WITH YOU."

Story of my life. I know yall gettin sick and tired of readin these depressing ass posts. But hopefully this will be one of the lasts. Once again, ya girl did it to herself. Yea I know huh...when will she learn. I have and I did. Nowhere but forward is where i can go. All I ask for is happiness..one day, I just might get that